*Hardest Part Of Life*

Hello, it's been a long while. New update of life. I am still pregnant with this bouncy baby boy, Leiland Nash. I am just about 33 weeks along, so not too much longer. THANK GOD! This has been a super long pregnancy because I have been in sooo much pain.
Braylon will be 3 in less than a month. Hopefully the terrible twos leave directly on his birthday as fast as they came along! We have been getting a little better, up until today. Haha.. He has been a little hellion today!
Christopher has been doing REALLY good in school! He has a 100% in Spelling. He is just like his mommy. =) He is doing very good in Math as well. The bad part is, is that he is completely opposite from the past school years. He is being good at school, but not so good at home. It was completely the other way around! Weird kid. Lol Overall, I am very proud of him!
Jesse and mine's anniversary was Friday. We have been together 4 years, married 2 years. The best 4 years of my life I must add. =) We went out to Jillian's for a fancy little dinner. It was amazing! We had no kids all night which was really nice. Although we were still in bed by 11. Haha ... We have gotten so old. But, it was nice to have alone time to just relax and enjoy each other's company. Saturday we pretty much finished cleaning out my aunt's house. We have just a little more to do, but it is sooo much cleaner now!
On a different, not so happy note, we had court the 4th for the adoption of Christopher. His bio-dad (sperm donor) ended up showing up. He got out of prison on the 18th of last month. Yee frickin haw! So, since he showed up to the court, we have to go to trial. I don't understand why he is making us go through all of this. He hasn't seen or talked to Christopher since he was 2 1/2, he is now 6!! That's almost 4 years! He has never paid child support or anything. Even though we are going to court, it doesn't change any of the facts that he has had absolutely no contact with him in 2 consecutive years. But, I am still worried just because I am a mommy and that's what we do, worry! I hope the judge sees past all his lies. And just because he created Christopher, doesn't make him his dad. My husband has been supporting him over half of his life! My husband is the only person in the world that Christopher knows as his dad. He doesn't even remember any of that family. I ended up having to delete my Facebook accounts because apparently I can't trust anybody! This dude that I have been friends with for a very long time was letting Christopher's sperm donor look at my Facebook and has been hanging out with the piece of crap since he's been out of prison. It's really bad when you think you have friends and they turn around and do horrible things like that. I guess he condoned of him abusing me and abandoning Christopher. Isn't he just the winner? I really needed to vent today and I no long have a Facebook account for the time being, so I guess I will put everything here. =) Well, I am gonna go! bye!!

*Busy*

So, it has been awhile, again! Everything has been pretty hectic around our house! I have been in school Monday-Wednesday nights, husband works for 10+ hours a day, kids have activities, etc. I am super exhausted! But, I have to do it because I want to keep kids busy and help them interact with other kids. We went and signed Christopher up for Boy Scouts last night. He is a Tiger Cub. It's so exciting! It wasn't fun though... Braylon was a terror! He wouldn't sit and just kept running around. On top of that, they had the A/C turned down so Jesse and I were sweating to death! Lol Now, it is a little funny, but then it wasn't! We got the lawyer paid and petitions filed for adoption of Christopher last Friday. I am so ready for all of that to be over with so we can all move on with our lives! I am not sure if I put in the last posts if we had decided on the baby's name? But, we decided on Leiland Nash! I am sooo anxious for him to be here! =) I will be 27 weeks along tomorrow! Just a little over 10 weeks to go. He is so active, I love it. I just recently got a UTI that my Dr. forgot to call and tell me that I had. I was pretty mad! I was in SO much pain! Luckily I am doing better now that I took all the antibiotics. But, the past 3 weeks sucked! So far we are liking our new house. Although, we are having issues with the landlord showing up unannounced driving by all the time. I don't know what she thinks she is going to find? We did talk about bringing our dog here, but it's going to cost $100 extra a month, so we have to wait til October. I think she thinks we are going to bring him here anyway. But, if I was going to do that, I would've just done it anyways and not said anything to her. But, I guess that's just her way of showing she doesn't trust us! But, anyways! I am gonna go. Ttyl! <3

* New House *

We have now been living in our house for 2 weeks and 2 days. I will just begin to say that it is AMAZING! I have not been this relieved and happy in quite some time. When we first moved in our A/C wasn't working... That really sucked! But, the bad part is that it was still cooler in here than it was in the house we were living in and we at least had one window air. How crazy is that? I have been keeping up with the house because I am not so hot and exhausted. The kids finally have an area to play in. Overall, I am just happy!
On a different note, Braylon will now only sleep with us! He falls asleep on the living room floor and if we try to put him in his own bed, he instantly knows. We have been trying everything. I guess it is better then him getting up and roaming around in the middle of the night. He is sleeping on our floor which is better then in bed with us.
Christopher is officially enrolled and set up for 1st grade! It's so crazy that my baby is 6! He now has grades and attendance. We went and seen who is teacher was yesterday. He said, "Is she a mean teacher?" I was like, "I hope not!" Lol kids crack me up! We go for his open house on Thursday to make sure he is all signed up and good to go and so we can see his classroom and meet his new teacher. I have my fingers crossed and I have been praying hard that this year will be better then the last and that he will get along better at this school.
I started school last night! Needless to say, I ended up bawling when I left... I am super disappointed in myself for not finishing regular high school when I know I wouldn't of had a problem doing so. I guess I will just have to swallow all that disappointment and just keep on going. I can't wait til it is all over though. The class was only suppose to be 3 nights, but apparently someone got confused. I go for like a whole semester. I didn't score very well on my math test... That really sucked!
Well, anyways I am gonna go and finish eating my breakfast before my youngest wakes up! Bye! <3

* Been Awhile *

Well, it's been a few since the last time I wrote. We got a house a few minutes from where we already live. I am so excited to move out of this house! I have the whole house to pack still, but kids never let me have the time to do so. We started a new routine with the kids and it's seems to be working, slowly, but it's working. The only part that is still not working is Braylon not wanting to go to bed until 11 PM and waking at 7 AM .. I am sooo exhausted! I can only imagine how my husband is feeling since he has been working 10 hours a day in this yucky heat! And this weekend, we have to make sure the whole house is packed. It's never ending. But, after we get moved in and everything settled, I am sure things will change. At least we'll have A/C, that might help with my youngest not going to sleep. 

I got Christopher enrolled yesterday. I am actually dreading him going to school. Last year was NOT a good school year. I really don't want to go through all the things we went through last year. I have been praying that things will be better this year. I feel that if the teachers and other helpers spent as much time with my son as they do calling me and having me come to the school, things would be going better. He is going to a different school that is licensed to handle behavioral problems. We will see how it goes. I know he hasn't been doing very good here at home. I really hope that changes! Well, I suppose I am going to go! Bye!

When I get home, You're so dead

* Let Down *

So, we didn't get that house in Nickerson. The deal that happened with that is, Saturday we got approved for another house. But, I really wanted the house in Nickerson. So, I called the Landlords for that house and asked if I could just come give them the deposit and get that house. They said, "Sure meet me at such and such place." So I did. I called when I got there and told them I was sitting out front. The lady came out and I started walking up and she told me to hold on while she went in to get her husband. Then they came back out and I walked back up there. They said, "We had a misunderstanding. We thought you were the lady that had looked at it first. She has first pick. If she doesn't show up on Monday then it's yours." So, I called the landlord to the other house and was honest with her. She said she would hold the house for us until Monday to find out if we got the other one. So, I called this morning and they rented out the house in Nickerson. I am so upset. But, at least we're getting out of this 1 bedroom finally. We go tonight to sign the contract and pay 1st months rent and deposit. My grandma is helping us out and I can't even express how thankful I am for her. I don't know what I would do without her. She helps us out SO much. But, we always give her 2-3 grand of our income tax. That way she knows we appreciate it and we are at least trying to pay her back. I am very upset about this whole ordeal. I prayed and prayed about the houses. I know God put us where we are suppose to be. I trust in him because he can foresee things that I can't. But I am still a little sad because I really wanted to live by my grandma. It's ok though, I am use to not getting what I want. But, at least now we can get the nursery done before baby gets here and there is so much space! And we are going to have a really big back yard that I will probably never leave. =) Well, I am going to go because my youngest wants to color on everything besides paper. Lol Bye! <3

Leftover Cuties ~ Game Called Life

* New Beginning... Hopefully *

Well, last night I couldn't get to sleep. I laid in bed for an hour thinking about the house we went and saw in Nickerson. It's right by my grandma and my mom. I mean, ya, I really probably don't want to live that close to my family.. But, damn I am excited! Lol I was just thinking about how I would set the house up, the convenience of my little sister being able to walk across the alley to come get Christopher and walk to the bus stop, getting to go over and drink coffee with my grandma in the mornings after kids go to school, getting to walk a couple blocks to the park I practically grew up in... You know, I couldn't wait to get away from home, but now it's where I really want to be. I really think we are going to get that house because I only fantasize and do the set up in my head if we are going to get the house. It's like I'm telepathic or something. Lol All I can say is I can't wait for Monday to find out if we get the house or not. Well, technically we are only filling out the application then, but still. I think the landlords liked us, plus I think I get the benefit that they know my family. Yay for everyone knowing my family. Lol I think I might pack some stuff today because either way we are moving. I also went to look at another house that had a huge basement and it was pretty nice. Both houses have huge, fenced in back yards, so either way, we are set on one thing we really want. Right now we have no back yard, so I can't even attempt letting kids outside. Plus, we live by a 3 busy streets. I can't wait to get moved!! 
Today is Mrs. Beshore's funeral. I am not going. I really was planning on going, but I just can't. I get so emotional at funerals, so I think it would be a bad idea since I am pregnant. I did go sign her book yesterday and talked to the family. I was a weirdo and talked out loud saying, "Mrs. Beshore, I promise I care, but I just can't go." Lol I just feel bad, so maybe she can hear me. = ) Well, I am gonna go. We're making breakfast this morning. Bye! <3

* Tribute to dear Mrs. Beshore *

I went up and signed Mrs. Beshore's book today. It was very bittersweet. She was so unique! Every memory of her was her being funny, I loved that about her. So, it was hard for me not to giggle like a little school girl because she was just a happy person. They had books that students had wrote in and some girl had put " I miss seeing you in the classroom and you saying 'Paga 11 a chunka". I laughed. There are some things that I have forgotten even though I haven't forgotten her even a little bit. But that, I do remember because we had different sizes of books and she had her own language to tell us which book we would be looking or writing in. She made English so much fun and my grammar and punctuation was all taught and remembered of her. I think that is why I have never liked English after that, because it will never compare to her classroom. Her saying " Oh hunka hunka burnin' love" and " It's mInkey, not mOnkey". = ) There are only so many teachers that touch your heart and really actually teach you something, not just education wise. And she was one of them. She use to take me to school in the mornings when I lived with my great aunt in the 7th grade. I remember the whole time she was taking me to school, it was always snowy. She went above and beyond what a teacher needs to, and I deeply and greatly appreciate that now that I'm grown up and understand better. I guess her and everyone else was right, I was just a child that was growing. But I will miss her dearly. I wish life hadn't gotten in the way and I could've kept in contact more. But, last night's dream was like her stopping by to say hi before going on her way to heaven. I love you, Mrs. Beshore! Have fun on your new adventure! <3

Cynthia Joan Whitlock Beshore

Cynthia Joan Whitlock Beshore, 60, was born July 18, 1950, in Hutchinson and died July 7, 2011, at Hospice House of Reno County. In October 2008, she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She fought for two years and eight months, but peacefully lost her battle.

She was a Nickerson resident from 1969 through 2003, working in the community as a Girl Scout leader, Sunday school teacher, youth leader, Chamber of Commerce member, Idona Club member and as a secretary for Nickerson High School. She graduated from McPherson High School in 1968. She received her BA from Sterling College in 1990. In 2005, she earned her Master's in Education from Baker University. She was honored to accept the 2009-2010 Davis Foundation "Teacher of the Year" award. She was a teacher for USD 308 from 1990 to 2010.

Her first job was at the Reno County Juvenile Detention Center for two years. For the last eighteen years she has taught English (specifically writing) to 7th graders at HMS-7 (old Sherman Jr. High School). Her survivors include: her father, Pete Whitlock of Hutchinson; her mother, Elizabeth Joan Whitlock of Hutchinson; brother, Chris Whitlock of Savannah, Ga.; sisters, Cathy McBride of Las Vegas, Nev. and Cheryl Thompson of Towanda, Kan.; son, Matthew Lambert of Hutchinson; daughters, Molly McGaughey and husband Robert of Manhattan and Hannah Beshore of Hutchinson; and grandson, Nicholas McGaughey of Manhattan. 

Funeral service will be at 10 a.m. Saturday, July 9, 2011, at the Fox Theatre in Hutchinson. Friends may sign the book from 1 to 9 p.m. Friday at Elliott Mortuary, Hutchinson. The casket will remain closed. Burial will be in Penwell-Gabel Cemetery and Mausoleum, Hutchinson. Ms. Beshore cordially invites all former students to the last Pony Treat. In lieu of flowers, memorials may be sent to Hospice of Reno County or to the HMS-7 memorial project, in care of the mortuary. Please visit www.elliottmortuary.com to leave a condolence for Cindy's family.

* Looking For A House... Again *

Well, today is not going so good... That house I was looking forward to, has been rented. I called the guy ALL day yesterday to come fill out an application and he wouldn't call me back. I called this morning and he had on his greeting that he had rented it out. I thought, "Wow! How professional!" Seriously? He couldn't call me back?! We have been in a 1 bedroom house with 2 kids and only 2 window air conditioners PLUS no insulation for over a year! I don't understand why nobody will sympathize that?! Well, on a better note! I have 2 rentals to go look at today. One is in the yucky part of this town that I really REALLY don't want to live in and the other is behind or near my grandma in the town next to us. Both aren't that nice of houses, but it's $550-$600 a month on both of them.. It's ridiculous! But we HAVE to have a 3rd bedroom for baby. I can definitely not put him around the other 2 boys because they are WAY too rambunctious.
Speaking of baby! =) I felt him kick for the 1st time last night at 11:10 PM! He went at it for over 30 minutes! I love that feeling! Then, this morning, he was doing it again! =) It puts me in such a good mood when the baby moves or kicks. I can't wait to meet him! I am getting overly anxious.
Well, I also found out first thing this morning that my 7th grade teacher passed away that use to work with me and take me to school every morning. = ( The most weird thing happened though! Last night, I had a dream I was walking down the street and went to Kwik Shop to buy my friend and I something to eat. Some lady walked in the door and I realized it was my 7th grade teacher. She asked me how I was doing and I said really good and I asked her, and she said fine. And then I walked out. My heart nearly stopped when my grandma called with the news this morning. But, I know she is in a better place and isn't in pain anymore. Her funeral is tomorrow. I have 2 funerals to go to this week. I am really not looking forward to them. I hate funerals. I am WAY to emotional. Even if I don't know the person. I can only imagine how I will be when I am pregnant and already hormonal and emotional. Well I suppose I better go and get the rest of the dishes done and keep the boys from fighting. Wish me luck on the houses today.. we REALLY need one. Bye! <3

* Another Day *

So, this is the blogging stuff that people get addicted to. I can already say I am. I suppose you would like to know who "I" am. =) My name is MacKenzie. I am 21 and live in the amazing state of Kansas, USA. ;-) I have a husband, Jesse who is 24. We have been married for almost 2 years and together almost 4. We have 2 boys; Christopher, 5 (Almost 6 on July 27th) and Braylon, 2 1/2. We also have another little one on the way. I am due November 28th. They say it is a little boy, but I am really hoping it was a mistake. Lol! This is my personal blog. I don't do anything fancy, except be a mommy and wife. I guess those 2 things by itself is a pretty amazing thing, though. Well, just thought I would introduce myself and family before I get started with life. =)




I have been up ALL night. All-nighters just aren't the same when you grow up, especially when they aren't planned or for anything fun. I'm almost 20 weeks pregnant and have horrible acid reflux. I personally thought I was done with the junk after my 2nd son. But, apparently not! Must be a pregnancy thing. I am having me time right now, although our cat keeps messing with our puppy, so I can already see their playing waking my kids! I went and looked at this cute little 3 bedroom house yesterday and I am praying that we get it! I took my husband to work this morning to have the car so I can go up and fill out the simple application. I really am looking positively that we are going to get it. Braylon has been pretty much a holy terror lately and it's really getting out of control. So, I made him an appointment with the pediatrician to get him tested to make sure there is nothing wrong. Although I have to wait a whole month to get in. Ahh! I hope I can survive. Lol Christopher has been on the "no listening" part of things. I feel like anything I say goes in one ear and out the other. Hmmm... What a surprise for a 5/6 year old. =) Well I suppose I will get off of here and I will update about the house situation soon! Bye for now! <3

* Baby Lexi's Fundraiser *

Papa John's will be holding a fundraiser for Alexis Nicole Martin's (April 16, 2011 - July 5, 2011) funeral. She was the daughter of a couple of my friends, Ricky and Chelsey Martin. The fundraiser will be help July 13th and 14th. Walk-in and Call-in's donate 20% of proceedings to her and Online orders donate 25%. Make sure to say you are calling for the fundraiser.

                                                Alexis Nicole Martin

Alexis Nicole Martin died July 5, 2011, in Hutchinson. She was born April 16, 2011, to Chelsey and Patrick Martin Jr.

Survivors include: her parents; and brother, Cameron Stevens.

Funeral will be at 1 p.m. Monday at Elliott Chapel, with Pastor Rick Goertzen officiating. Burial will be in Fairlawn Burial Park, Hutchinson. Visitation will be 9 a.m. to 9 p.m. Sunday with the family present from 6 to 7:30 p.m. at the mortuary. Memorials to the Alexis Martin Memorial Fund. Please visit www.elliottmortuary.com to leave condolences for Lexi's family.

* "Caylee's Law" Petition *

http://www.change.org/petitions/create-caylees-law

Go to the site listed above to sign the petition that would make is a federal offense for a parent/guardian to not report a child missing in a timely manner. If so, they would be charged with a felony. Help make this happen for the beautiful little girl who didn't get justice and make sure it doesn't happen again!